dont expect me to try and be understanding all the time..
i cant and i wont. it's too difficult for me.

i feel that my life is all abt living for the sake of others. i do what others say/expect more than what i feel like doing. just because i dont like to see disappointed faces. anyone of them try puting themselves in my shoes and understand how i feel? there's so many times when i feel so disappointed and can do nothing at all. what can i say?

maybe it's rly time to live for my own sake-not for others.
maybe it's time to rly say 'no' at times even if it means seeing bu shuang
faces.
maybe it's time to just go the way i wish..

how many times i tried telling myself these? and yet.. when i see those stupid disappointing face, they win liao.

..... i had enough.
no one understand why i feel this way at all. no one will kena such shit at all.